Moving on after a parent’s death isn’t possible because you can never “move on.”
The pain is too deep to so call “move on” from.
I personally like to use the words “learn to cope with” instead of “move on.”
It just sounds better and is easier on the mind.
Moving on is more like learning to forget him/her. Yon can’t and shouldn’t forget him/her.
You want to remember and embrace your memories in order to heal.
At first, your memories will be your worst enemy. You will get pass this stage.
Then, the stories will be part of your happiness. They are all you have left anyways.
It’s okay to cry. In fact, I highly recommend crying. Because it can help you release your sorrow building up.