Thank You Mom

So many times I have wanted to say something to you but I never know where I should start, apologizing for all the time you have had to pick up my pieces or thanking you for always keeping me together. Over the years, you have been the glue that has kept me together. You gave me the strength to put a fake smile on my face instead of being a complete wreck.

I owe you so many apologies. You shouldn’t have had to pick me up all those times I fell apart. You have a lot going on without having to worry about my mental health too. I should be stronger, not always be leaning on you to keep me standing. I didn’t choose this but either did you so you shouldn’t suffer the repercussions of mental illness. You get hit with the collateral damage of the illness, all my negativity, and pain. It is not fair to you.

You shouldn’t have to deal with any of it, but you do.

I will forever be grateful for that. I am fully aware that I don’t thank you enough. Just know how hard it is for me to swallow my pride and admit that I need you right now, that I need the help. I am not strong enough to do this on my own.