Single Single MOM
Some days the world is supportive. Some days the world is completely against my decisions. The reality is that you are not the mother of my child. You are not the court official that sealed a document that decided my two-person family’s fate.
Yes, I made a beautiful human with an individual that I hoped would step up to the plate. You’re right, he struck out too many times and I hold him accountable for his mistakes.
If I already did not feel bad enough for my fatherless child, I can guarantee that I feel bad for all of the judgmental human beings that completely disregard the paths that I had to choose for him.
To the father of my child, I am sorry. I am so sorry that you feel the need to make me out to be a child hoarder while you go about your extra-curricular activities with inappropriate substances in your hands. I’m sorry that you were the first one to walk away. I’m sorry that your choices brought us to this mile marker on this highway of parenting.
To my child, I am so unbelievably pained that you have to endure this throughout your lifetime. Time and time again I have reassured you that both your mother and your father love you. The truth is that we both have chosen to show our love in different ways. Regardless of our positions in your life, please know that you were never made from anything other than love. Big fat love.
To the facebook judges, the wide eyes with disgust in the grocery store, and all of the other individuals who feel as if their opinion counts in the life of my little child, you can stop now. You have your own life to live. So, why in the world do you feel the need to use your words in attempts to make me question my abilities as a mother? Stop. Just stop.
And lastly to the judge that sealed the envelope, thank you. Thank you for making me learn to accept what was in the best interest of my child. My clouded judgment needed your guidance. You provided the next stepping stone in my journey as a mother. With your simple stroke of a pen and swing of the gavel, you helped change my son’s life for the better.
To all of you, one last time, thank you for pushing me forwards with your negativity or your positivity. I would not be the strong and loving mother that I am without your influence.