I deeply wish my conscience was always in the clear like yours seems to be.
There are questions I wish you had enough humanity in yourself to ask. What am I doing? What do I know about them? When was the last time I called to check in?
If, your memory seems to be hazy on those dates perhaps you should take more of a look at what you are doing to be the best parent you can be.
Did your parents treat you this way? If they did I’m sorry, but we should always want to be better than them.
Your mind seems to be free of worry. Yet, my mind constantly swirls with it.
You might get to sit up at 2:00 AM playing video games, or going out, or getting to watch something on TV that does not involve a cartoon character. I’ll gladly sit up without all those luxuries keeping a fever down.
I’ve learned to love everything they are passionate about. My taste is music has changed to whatever they like now. Do you know what their favorite music is?
I bet you can sing every song lyric from your favorite bands though.
Because I like all their friends except for one. I tried reaching out to you with my worry’s you simply had better things to do that day.
The funny part about all this is when Your friends need you no matter what the time you are always there for them.
You say thing’s like “They are like family to me.” But, what about the family you helped create? I suppose water will be thicker than blood for you.
They stopped asking about when you would visit again. I’m still waiting for you to notice. Being beyond disappointed and frustrated is an understatement to describe my feelings or theirs.
In case you needed a reminder, their feelings are what matter the most.
I’ll always wish I could keep them safe from your disappointing behavior. The heart break you cause will be the first they feel in their little lives.