I’ve Never Tried to Intentionally Hurt You.
I know this one is the hardest to swallow and you are least likely to believe it. I hope that you are reading this with an open heart and really hear what I’m saying. Nothing I have ever done was to hurt you. You may think back on two Christmases ago. Or Feburary of 2014…. I thought I was making the right decisions with my husband. Things were so messed up.
It Wasn’t My Idea to Move.
I’m not sure if we ever told you this, but I didn’t make the decision to move away. He did. He suggested it and we discussed it. We didn’t do it to leave you or to tear the babies away. We felt a calling that is inexplicable. And I know that everyday is hard being this far apart, but I hope that you can see that we didn’t do this to run away, we didn’t do this to separate you… We did it because we felt it was the right decision, the best decision, and God’s will. I still believe that and am constantly working to improve things so we can see each other more.
So when you read this, I hope you will see my heart just as you did years ago. I was never faking it and I miss you. I know that you aren’t perfect and you sometimes make bad choices. We all do! I’m still going to be here, loving you through the struggles and hoping that you’ll do the same.
You Are Cherished.
Anyway, this letter started off different in my head, but I just let my heart speak through my fingers. Know that I love you. You are cherished. And I’m so thankful for you. Even though we are 6 hours away now, we don’t have to have the distance that we’ve had. Call me. Skype me. Message me. We miss you and we don’t talk nearly enough! I just get caught up in the gazillion things to do that the days get away and before you know it, a whole year is gone…..
Looking forward to seeing you again!
Love,
Your-Daughter-in-Law