Hi Military Mommy, we may not see you often as other moms…but I feel you from afar and hear your cries more than any other mom will understand.
Remember, that time where all the moms posted their cute valentines day boxes they made with their kids and you hit like and act like you weren’t jealous. Little do they know you cried yourself to sleep that night just to kill to do valentines cards for the class.
Remember, that time you left home and feared you were never coming back. How it felt to fill out that life insurance and will. Legit convinced your kids were going to live a life without their mother.
The visions of you missing a mother son dance on his wedding day. The vision of your daughter going prom dress shopping without you.
Remember, that last kiss that your little ones had no idea how long it was going to be until the next one.
And remember, that time you saw your kids sports game from a video camera and everyone said “thank God for technology”, and you roll your eyes because it doesnt even come close. Like lady dont you realize I cry my eyes out as soon as we hang up! Screw technology!
Remember, that time you went to call to say goodnight. But your kids are so far away. And you did not even realize they have been fast asleep for hours without you.
And remember, that time where everyone wanted to help, and you appreciate it but deep down cant stand other people are enjoying your children’s life without you.
Remember, that time people tell you “idk how you do it, I could never”.. SHUT UP replays over and over in your head.
And remember, that time your kid move to the next grade and you were not there.
Remember, that day you thanked amazon for delivery for birthday gifts. Because you missed another party.
And remember, that christmas that you cried all day. Because you were in a twin size bunk starring at the ceiling hoping your kids wanted your presence instead of the presents.
Remember, the plane/drive back replaying over and over in your head how it will be when you show up back in their lives. The fear of resentment, the fear of not being forgiven.
And remember, the question of “mommy, when are you leaving again”? Because they are already expect it happening.
Remember, thinking if your son will resent women because to him they always leave and are not consistent.
And remember, when you had to tell them your leaving again but justifying that it’s not as long as the last one.
Military Mommy, I remember. In fact, I remember every single time that I felt all of that. I remember exactly where I was at that moment when that feeling hit.
Military Mommy, don’t feel guilty for choosing this career. And don’t feel less of a mother. Because of what social media throws at you. Feel resilient, feel strong, and it’s ok to cry. And it’s ok to remember all of this, remember I see you and feel you. You are so amazing.