To My Father Who Chose His Addiction over Me.

I let them verbally and emotionally abuse me. And I kept going back to them, despite knowing it was toxic.

I don’t hate you. And I don’t wish you harm. I don’t wish for anything; I stopped wishing for you to step up and be a father years ago.

I’ve come to terms with the fact that you’ll never step up and be the father I always imagined you could be.

I’d be lying if I said that it didn’t still hurt, but I won’t let that stop me from moving on with my life.

I know I’m worth so much more than what I’ve always felt.

I’ll never choose drugs or alcohol over my child like you did. My child will grow up knowing that his mother loves him more than anything.

He will grow up knowing that he’s smart, loved and capable of doing anything he sets his mind to.