How my pain as a child became my strength as a mom
Posted On March 6, 2020
I Did Not Know What Love Was
From my past, to have become someone who knows nothing other than love. I conceived my first child at 16. I felt so lost of love that i didn’t want to continue with life anymore. And I was depressed . Confused of why me . I thought maybe I could love a human like no one loved me. And I had nothing but hopes and dreams while being a mom. I wanted to accomplish everything my parents never had.
Amira
When Amira came into this world. Let me tell you, that cold dark past that I thought would never leave my shoulders, left. And that weight was lifted when they laid that baby on my chest. Feeling her heart beat made mine pump faster ! Wow, I finally experienced what love felt like and it felt so good. I just wish I had known it sooner. (mind you this is about my parents – my gram always loved me)
High School As A Mom
While I was still in high school, I was also a full time mom. And it made me want to work harder. Even though the dark was lifted from me and I did feel lighter. I still had some hurt left. And from what was left, was the motivation that pushed me to want the opposite of what I had growing up.