Struggling Is Ok
I guess what I want to convey from this post is that it’s okay to have struggled and to be struggling. That we sometimes think we are at the end because it’s not where we want to be. But that is only the beginning. From losing my brother to parents getting into drugs and having more kids after not even being able to take care of me ? I was confused. And I thought; well this is it .. this is what my life is going to be like.
Looking Back
Looking back, I honestly could never change the damage that has ever happened to me. That damage created the most loving mom. My kids come first with everything in life. And I baby my kids because love is so valuable. Because love is so heavy, it can either weigh you down or lift you up. So when I said i never wanted my kids to experience the life I lived, I kept my word. And I made sure they knew what love was, How love is so very important.
My Pain Is Where I Gained My Strength
I love waking up everyday to the loves of my life. I’m so blessed to have my little ones look up to me everyday- I finally felt love everywhere. I felt the tingle sensation in my heart. And I felt the part where I couldn’t stop smiling. I felt the missing part of me come back and Create me whole again! And I not only gained strength and love from my dark past, I also learned how to love and show strength.
