I wish I could take back today back or even not think about what happened. I would love to skip today, but unfortunately, life doesn’t work like that. Today’s the day you left me all alone aka your death anniversary.
I’m trying not to get depressed, but my mind can’t stop spinning.
The worst part is knowing I have to relive this day every year now.
As pain runs through my veins, I just keep feeling worse.
I just wish you were here, Mom.
I want to smile and act like everything’s okay, but I can’t right now. Maybe another day, but today is not that day.
I have to find stuff to keep me occupied and help me stop thinking about what today is and just live my life. Maybe, I’ll go to the park, go to the mall or library. I'm sure just spending time with my kid(s) will lift up my spirit too.
Because I need to be okay even though it sucks without you. Possibly something that reminds me of you will make this day suck less too.
However, I spend my day I need to remember it’s just another day without you. I have my memories and pictures close to my heart.
I will stay strong and learn my life without you. I wish I didn’t have to, but it’s too late now.
Because you’re my guardian angel now and the best one I ever could ask for.
But the truth is today will always be the worst day of my life.