Our son started soccer last week.
He will start T-ball this year too.
I wish you could have been apart of it. I wish you could have seen how happy he was. It's the events like that when I remember your absence. There are some days you don't enter my mind. It's the milestones where we feel your absence. Our child turns four years old in one month... You haven't seen him since he was one and half years old. To this day, I don't even know why. I have never asked for money from you. The door has always been open for you to come see him. Nothing bad even happened between us. One day you just stopped all contact with him.
He asks about you from time to time. He asks if you love him and where are you. I tell him you love him but I don't know where you are. Unfortunately, that is the truth. I really do not have any idea where you are. Sometimes he asks why he can't come see you. I never know how to answer that..... Well, because I don't even know the answer.
If you were unable to be a consistent presence in his life then I am thankful you took yourself out of it. I just never wanted my son to be fatherless and because of you he is. But because of me, he will never feel like he has missed out. I will teach him to score a goal, swing a bat, pitch a ball, and score a touchdown. I will teach him to ride a bike without training wheels and to drive. I will buy him his first car. I will teach him how to be Godly man. I will teach him how to be a gentleman. And most importantly I will teach him what it means to be a dad and to never abandon his responsibilities.
He will be a great man. He is already a great kid. It won't be because of you it will be IN SPITE of you. He has my last name and he always will. He is my greatest pride. He turned me into the person I have always wanted to be. He brings happiness and light into my life. I feel sorry for you because I am raising him without you. You are missing out on the greatest joy any human could ever experience. And that was YOUR decision. Not mine.