I know we’re doing the friends with benefits thing right now, and I know you’re not looking to be in a relationship with anyone right now, but I can’t help except wonder…are you not wanting to be in a relationship at all, or you just don’t want to be in a relationship with me?
The more we talk, the more time we spend together, and the better we get to know each-other, the more my feelings for you come to light.
I've always been the girl that either felt too much, or nothing at all. But with you, I feel everything.
I'm happier now than I have been in such a long time.
I truly enjoy seeing you smile and laugh. I enjoy listening to you talk and tell me stories about your life, your family, your job, etc. It shows me a new side of you and I get to learn more about you. I absolutely adore you and love spending time with you. It's been so long since I've been able to just sit down and talk with someone about random things; or even not talk at all and just enjoy each-others presence.
Please don’t get me wrong, I enjoy what we have now, but I’m also thinking of my future. I want a future with someone who adores me. Someone who appreciates me and what I have to offer. Someone that accepts me as I am, but also knows that I have flaws and I’m working on myself. Someone that genuinely cares about me and my well-being. I want commitment, consistency, honesty, loyalty; I want a family...I want love…one day.
I know I’m not ready for that right now, but one day I will be.
Am I wasting my time just being friends with benefits? Do you not feel anything towards me, except lust possibly? Can you not see this, us, going anywhere?
I don’t want to just be what I am now – I want to eventually be more. Can’t you see it in the way I look at you? Can’t you feel it in my touch and when we kiss?
If there’s no chance of us ever being anything more than we are now, please just let me know.
I have to know if there’s a chance, or no chance at all. I need to know if I have to guard my heart more or if eventually I’ll be able to take my guard down.